Cocoon

Things change when you move on... the tougher side is now becoming acceptable, you start liking our own company, the memories which use to bring tears in your eyes  now becoming an amusing element of your life. you are changed completely changed.. by heart by soul and by your feelings. You created a protective Cocoon around yourself so that now there will be no chance to be hurt. And in a easy way we can say that we stopped trusting, the cocoon is so hard that it do not allow anyone to get into it sometimes even a right one. You pretend to be normal, that your life is now on track,
 You change your hairstyle to be different not because you like to be fabulous rather you are running from your old look which was a favorite one of your X.
You laugh more to prove yourself happy but inside you lack smile which is the by default reaction when you were together. Romantic moves switched to the comedy ones as you want to escape from the intense feelings which you already felt at times in love.
Your hanging out joints are changed now you avoid going to the places where you have wonderful memories together. You dont want to stop on traffic signals beacuse now there is no one with you to cuddle in public.
You started to sleep more as you had been loads of awake on phone, on messages and even in staring at moon but now a good escape to be a brain dead.
Your hobbies changed because they are now not that much entertaining as hobbies are now exchanged, exchanged with them just to feel him you peruse their hobbies.
Change change change.... all you changed but still you call is to be move on... every breath you take is a story, a memory , a time slot you spent together but now its worthless.
We are not together now but still nothing changed even after I changed.

Thats all I want....

From the day I enter as an angel with my tiny feet in our home, I became my mother’s life, my fathers dream, my brother’s doll. The time get feather and I turn into a young ambitious girl. A girl from the era of self dependence, confidence and equality. At this age of life every girl has her own dream own expectation from others and specially from the one whom she tie up one day… so even I have , I am a girl a common girl, a girl that lives inside you, nearby you or somewhere around you…..

I am not a one who have a dream of prince charming who will come on white horse and takes me with him, I live in a age of technology, BBM , Wechat , Whtsapp where before meeting face to face we have loads to discuss on virtual media, and I don’t think its wrong after all its just give us a safe way to understand each other.

I believe that the one who will touch my life should be smart enough to handle it. Being a 21^st centaury girl I  have my own life which I will not dedicate to you rather I will share it with you I want more to be your pal, your partner than a dependable wife who will just be operated by your commands and programs. From older time girls are treated as emotional machine who take decision by heart , yes I have heart but some grey matter too, I use my brain too every time so now there is no chance to fool me around by a melodrama or emotional attyachar.

Now days due to spread of education we are intellectual, talented , and career oriented but than too be in profession is totally my decision, I will decide that what I choose after marriage a job oriented lady or a perfect homemaker. Its all about my time management and I am smart enough to handle my priorities.

Girls are brought up with the fact that we should be efficient too in our home making, yes we are but it doesn’t mean that we are robots even we need rest and over all we love to be helped and its feel awesome when you help us. Its our home so we can share this too. A research proved that the couple who work at home together more often are more emotionally attached than others.

I am mannered enough to respect others but respect should be earned not been forced. In terms of it I will not remain a dummy if I will not get the same values from your part which I deliver. Being a women I m not to be treated as speechless doll who except all goods and bad from your side, I have a right to fight if something went wrong.

And at last, I need your love and care, a small hug which fresh in up a day, a motivation of your smile which gives me strength to live more for you, care more for you.

I left my home, my childhood, my toys my memories and came to your place just for you because I trust you more than my life , I believe that you are a god’s angel who made by him only for me and I for you.

This trust is my life and this trust is my power capsules which give me strength to accept that yes “I can do anything for you”.

That all I want….

I am the one who breath, who speak, who smile, who cry..

But you treat me a doll, a toy, why!!

I am a gift of god who blossom your life..

Treat me as your partner not just a commanded wife!!

Just give me the trust that you will forever be mine..

And I will be yours till shade and shine.

Pheww!! to Past........

A broken heart is hard to deal with no matter how the break up goes down. It is something that may hurt for a long time to come. ....You need to figure out how to get over a broken heart when it happens. It may not be something that you want to think about but you have to do it because life does go on and you need to take advantage of it.
There are going to be different phases of the breakup. You need to go through them all so that you are able to achieve the sense of security and love that you once did. Having these feelings are going to be good for you but you do not want to take them too far.
This will only make things harder on you when it comes to getting on with your life. There are predicable phases of a break up. You may have been through them before, but there are some good ways to deal with your strong feelings and get over that broken heart fast!

1. You need to share your feelings.
          Getting out what you are feeling is going to make you feel better inside. You want to share these feelings with your friends and family or anyone that will listen to you. Having a good support is going to help you get through the tough times faster. You do not have to let it out all at once. Talk about it slowly and work your way up to getting it all out in the open.

2. Think about what is good for you.              You have to get over this broken heart fast so that you are able to feel better. You need to make good choices for what is good for your heart and soul. Make sure that you are not putting yourself in any situation that may be harmful for you. Getting over the breakup is important and you need to do what is best for you.

3. Taking good care of you is important.
          You want to keep eating and exercising and staying healthy. You need to keep your strength up so that you are able to be strong and able to feel good about yourself. This will help you get over the break up and get back on track.

4. Let it all out if you want to.
          Crying is good. You do not have to be embarrassed about crying. It is part of life. You will find that there are going to be hard times that hit you all of a sudden and you will feel like crying and letting it all out. You need to do this anyway to keep your sanity. This will help you feel better and get back on track. You need to do this when you feel the urge and do not worry about what others think.

5. Doing the things that you love the most will help you get over the break up too.         You will want to make sure that you are keeping up with your hobbies and doing what makes you the happiest. You want to keep your schedule on track and stay busy. This will help you heal faster.

6. Keeping busy is KEY.
       You need to stay on the go and keep your mind occupied. This will allow you to keep old what is his name out of your mind and keep you motivated to stay healthy. You want to make sure that you are doing all that you can to stay busy. You will want to talk to your friends, go out more and spend some time with your family. These things will make you feel better and help heal your wounded heart.

7. Time is of the essence.
       You need to remember that all wounds heal with time. You need to give yourself the time and soon you will notice that you are not feeling so bad and that life is good again. You will move on and find a new love that will take your mind off of the break up that you thought would ruin your life.

There is no need to worry when you are involved in a break up. Everyone has been through it and there is going to be happiness again. It will happen for you and when it does, you will feel much better that you knew what to do to get over the break up faster.

From the diary of Cindrella......

He is smart intelligent, a mysterious personality, helpful to everyone, though he is not cool dude, but there is something which attracts you towards him, the best part about him is his "deep eyes", there is lots of stories in his eyes sometime we can feel a pain and some time they will show you immense love. If god made him dumb also, his eyes are big enough to express his words. Most of the world think that he is introvert and bit sh rude, even I think the same when I met him first, he came to me to make me comfortable as it was our first formal meeting but inside he was more nervous than me. slowly with the time passes I realize that he is not like that what I framed from him, he is an interesting creature who always have something new with him, he has an extraordinary  sense of humor which is always refreshing for me I don't know when and how we became best pals as he also found a good friend inside me, the bonding which make us tied is we are free from jealousy, comparisons, attitude  and ya Love........ we are not in Love with each other....I am for sure about this because I never feel any anxiety for him, I love his company we talk for hours day and night of almost all the things of world even about girls boys secret to our pain of life....... Life seems so smooth with him, he always refresh my time with his smile, his smile is so innocent and i don't know why I feel so relaxed when I  use to see him laughing, I started caring for him, his looks, his way of talking, his feeling towards other girls, yes a possessiveness knocked in my life, I again asked myself is that Love but than also its not I am very much sure about my feelings I cant love a guy anymore and I am rigid to it, he usually use to tell me we are good companion we both are average in every field so we complement each other, I always use to ignore this. Sometimes just for fun we use to play as dummy husband wife and I always love to became a typical dominating wife and he always treat me as princess, he use to say my home as Castle, treat me as Cinderella whose cart became pumpkin if someone else drive it, I don't know how I started believing in that dream world just forgot that we live in bloody materialistic real world where fairy lives far away, and I left my age of fairy tales. It a common saying that your destiny follow like your shadow......and that's what happens I don't know how I feel addicted to him, his talks, his care and his dream fairy world which he made for me. But reality is different He is gone, gone to make his future as he think we are just "Happy" with each other but happiness is not enough to live life...... point of view of this real harsh world in which I don't want to live, its better to sleep and be in my fairy land in which my prince live for the cost of my smile, where "happiness" is all what we want.........So I am sleeping, sleeping forever...........

Wait that never ends........

When two people fall in love words hardly needed......But when there is a one sided attraction, I mentioned the term attraction because love needs always to hearts two be one... But when there is one sided attraction all our attempts are useless, it better to get out of this useless phase, I know its not easy to except your whole hearten relation a one sided nightmare but as early we except this its easy to move on and live a normal life.
                       Rishab and Ridhima are college friends they have an extra ordinaory chemistry with each other, both started looking each other, gradually they fall in love, Rishab is a practical man like other after a time he started feeling that Ridhima is good to be entertainment package only , she will not prove a complete package of beauty, intelligence and the most important one wealth........ I used a materialistic word "package" because now days love is not enough to live a life every thing is needed to survive, but girls are girls we cant help them out, though girls are also very practical in their life, but still god gave them a child heart that when they fall in true love they forgot all terms, all resolution, all boundaries they just want to be with their love and can fight with whole world to win their love, but some time they have to fight with their love only......... and then they loose, not only the love but their identity, their strength, their trust everything, its easy to fight with world but not with the one you love........ same thing happen with Ridhima she became totally addicted to Rishab, she don't know how to live a single moment without him but not able to express Rishab, she tried everything to get her love back, every single day she wake up with a hope that today Rishab will come to her and say I need you in my life but every night she face the disappointment, her mind says that he will not come back but at the very moment her heart remembers the words of Rishab which he use to say "Please don't leave me ever" .......Day spend months gone Ridhima compromises with her life, she is normal now but one thing that never change in her is that she will not trust anyone now, even one her own because now she feels every one come to her only to leave her when she need him at most............
This is about Rishab and Ridhima, but most of girls and even boys have similar stories, but there is big truth behind it that you will not force or make somebody to get love with you until and unless he or she wants to...... so its useless to waste your time and heart in these relation.
 "The one who love you will never make you cry and if he does than that cry will be the over reaction of your happiness."

Be honest..........???

In every relationship trust is priority.....but how can we build the term called "Trust" by maintaining faith with him in present relationship or by honestly presenting your past.... But is this really work for a successful relationship ?? Is your partner ready to digest your past?? Will he strong enough to overlook your sins of past and look forward for a successful bonding ahead...
Snigdha and shantanu met each other when they already broke up with their past relationship, they feel a awesome bonding and attraction, gradually they came closer and look for their future, they discussed almost everything about their past except some weak moments, one day just to prove her love and faithfulness Snigdha discussed a weak moment of her life as she is confident enough that Shantanu will understand. But she forgot that how broad minded shantanu is after all he has a "Men's heart" . He forgive Snigdha but from that day their bonding is changed the lightness and freshness which they feel in the relationship is vanished now, what left is just comparisons, suspect ions, empty silence, boredom and end of the day "fights"... The beauty of their relationship is they are "best pals" but now are another next door compromising couples who blame each other for all the mishappenings of their lives. And finally one day they decided to get out of their fake relationship.
Once they shared awesome moments of love, respect, maturity, understanding and over all friendship which is priority for any relationship, but now its all over. All left is emptiness.... Again they are on the same lonely path from where they started their journey of love....
This is not only a story of Snigdha and Shantanu its happens most of the time when we try to be over honest about our past..... But still its a big question that is it good to tell each n everything to your partner or leave our past in graves to start a new phase of life.... What if your partner came to know from others regarding it.. Then its result will be more dangerous than what happen to Snigdha... In both the cases our love loose... So what if we love our partner more than our past he will always lives a comparative life....
Love is a fresh feeling that have its own wings.... If we not compare our love with love of a mother, a sister, a daughter.....why we always compare it with X partners..... Every relation has its own definition and will never overlap with one another.....
You made my life once again.....
You walked in with a new breeze
You touched my heart once again....
I never realized how dead I am
Until you teach me to breath once again....
I am searching answer for my life..
But you gave me a new question to ask once again....
  
 

Customized Love.......

Every one have their own definition of love..... some exclusive thought, some unique concept of expressing, some unusual desires... But do we ever think that this all have a vice-versa effect....

someone some where is also knitting his own dreams according to his desires, his wishes, his values...

But this what love is ? what we are expecting from our lives, a new breeze of feelings or a customized love essence.... Think once, what will cherish you more, a surprise from your partner or a predefined gift which you already listed on ur day one date... how u accept from ur partner that he will be exactly same to ur desires when u are not programmed according to his commands...

Make be he will not able to quote a poetry, not able to bring flowers every day, not able to mention you that he missed you every passed second, even not able to wear what you want to see on him...but he is a man, a man who make you happy every single day since he came to ur life.... protect you from the world, and most importantly give you an opportunity to discover a new feel, a new touch, a new meaning of love which u never ever experience before... he make ur every new day actually "new". Why to regret if he is not alike what you had dreamed.... he is someone of his own.

Being in love its not ur aim to hurt him, analyse him, change him and customized him according to ur wish list... love is to give him smile when he make u happy by his work, yelling him when he make you mad, tell him how much u miss him when he is not around you... He is ur man he deserve all what he gave u in life show him ur actual soal, show him how u are different from others, show him how you give him a new shade in his life, make him realize the emptiness without you... Treat him like a human nor a programmed device, feel him explore him...

Love is a journey of two in which every day is for exploring a new world rather to walk on a pre determined paths.... Some times you feel that he is not perfect but he makes u perfect when he is with you...and that's what matters more... Love him because he is he...not a commanded robot because a robot can be programmed by any one but he will be urs and urs forever...